my turmoil continues

last week or so, i was having some thinking issues. mostly, thinking too much. nothing has changed in the last week and i've made the decision to make some decisions. how decisive, right?

i got on depo around this time last year (may to be precise) because i was engaging in semi-adult extra curricular activities and needed some protective gear. life was lovely because i was engaging in said activities and not risking ruining my life plus, no cramps, no period most of the time and little to no mood swings. life was beautiful...except that despite my hardest efforts, i'm still a fatty. or at least, i think i'm a fatty. it's difficult to impossible to lose weight on this damn thing and it's breaking my spirits. between running and yoga, i should be dropping weight, not to mention, i have a good diet, so there should be no excuse for me staying the same weight or fucking gaining weight.

so i've finally had enough and i'm not getting any anyway, so fuck it.  i care more about me than i do that, so come may for my next shot, i'm not getting it. or is it april? i don't even remember...

i refuse to be the chubby friend anymore. i hide my weight rather well, but it's been bothering me for years and i've developed a pretty unhealthy self loathing attitude about it.

blah. i should be going to yoga tonight in oh...half an hour. but i'll probably end up sitting here without pants on and moping.

about 3 weeks behind on this...

but i love this comic in general and this particular one just made me snort:

Natalie Dee. Enjoy kids. Check out the other comics linked on her site IE: Married to the Sea and Toothpaste for Dinner. She and her husband do the comics and even though they're from Ohio, they crack me up.